Should I move forward or backward?

I stand in the middle of nowhere,

Looking at noone,

Being ignored by everyone.

And I started to think.

Am I alive?

Or just a body of a soulless creature?

My brain is telling me Im alive.

The thumping of my warm heart served as the proof.

But then, the coldness of my life

contradict with all the warmness that my heart is giving out.

I walked, and walked, and walked.

Just to reach the end of the line.

Look down to see the bottomless pit.

Butterflies flying around.

Inviting me to join them.

Should I? Would that be the right answer?

I asked that question over again.

But, why nobody want to answer me?

Fact that slapped me hard.

Fact that remind me,

Im alone.

Standing at the border of freedom and loneliness.

What choice should I made?

What choice would be the right one?

To move forward, or to move backward?

Can anyone help me?